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E.T. fone home

Saturday

December 10th, 2007

Current Mood:Happy emoticon Happy & Playful emoticon Playful

I made some new friends recently and I decided to introduce them to some Singapore culture. What’s the best way to do it? FOOD! Hell yeah, that’s the culture of Singapore anyways. It’s all about eating. I brought Rob and Noah to the Singapore restaurant in Chapel Hill. I think that they liked it. I know I did… It was also an excuse for me to taste some home food. I’ll admit I get homesick from time to time.

After lunch, Rob suggested this farm place around the area. We went there and got ice cream. For those who know me, ice cream is an indulgence for me, and I don’t usually have them. But man, IT WAS GOOD! Thanks Rob!

I commented how the space around the farms look like emptiness, but was corrected about it :) . I guess I didn’t articulate myself as well as I should. It is different and I have always felt that I was born in the wrong country. I enjoy space and this is a nice change from the hustle and bustle of city life. I loved it and it was just overwhelming at that time. I think I can grow to love the openness (in all sense of the word) and space here in the US. I have already grown to love Raleigh. For all of those who say that Raleigh is boring, I would say, yeah, but that’s your opinion. Don’t judge me for what I like because I know what I like. And this is a nice change of pace and lifestyle from what I have back home. It’s so draining to be in a city. There will always be things that I will miss in a city, but it’s always a balance what I like and what I miss.

We came back to Raleigh and I dropped Rob off to pack for his vacation. Noah and I went to get a chiminea for my backyard and we spent the evening with some of my friends having dinner and sitting by my brand new chiminea. Overall, I totally enjoyed Saturday and it was one of the best weekends I have had. But Monday beckons and I am dreading it. At least Christmas is coming around…

White

December 8th, 2007

Current Mood:Flirtatious emoticon Flirtatious & Cool emoticon Cool

I went to Chicago yesterday. It was a day trip. As I was flying into O’Hare airport, I looked out the window and saw that the ground was white. It was snow. I landed in a city covered with snow. This was exciting, but it’s was cold outside. I’ve seen snow only a couple of times in my life and it’s a real treat for me to be able to experience it this trip. I don’t think I can live in a place with snow though, at least not for an extended period. I just don’t know how to deal with it, how to drive in it and all the snow shoveling…

So I am in Chicago for a partner presentation to extremely high level executives. I did my presentation piece. Did I do good? Probably not, but I didn’t do bad. I felt out of place, some of the discussions were WAY out of my league, although it was very interesting watching and listening. We have to learn at some point. I am glad that I am given this chance to be exposed to such situations. I can feel myself growing professionally.

I had coffee with a friend the night before I had to be in Chicago and he mentioned that I will do fine with the presentation. I was having butterflies in my stomach for the previous 2 days before the presentation and I realized that after what he said, I felt better and comforted. However, I didn’t do as well with the presentation as I would have liked and I want to be able to deliver a polished presentation and hold a decent discussion, be it technical or business. I have a lot to learn and a lot to work on. Finally, I am beginning to feel challenged. This is going to be an exciting time for me.

Today

December 4th, 2007

Today I walked into the office with a strange sense of serenity. Maybe it’s just warmer today so I am not worried about freezing my ass off.

Today is the day a friend takes his finals. I know he will pass, I hope that he will do well. He really deserved it for all the perseverance and effort that he put into it.

Today I starting to get into the swing of things before the Christmas holidays.

Today is the day I need to get a haircut.

Today is not over yet, and it sure is taking it’s time to play itself out.

Nostalgia

November 30th, 2007

Current Mood:Confused emoticon Confused

I spent some time reviewing my blog today because I was working from home due to a crappy stomach issue. (pun intended)

I must say that it’s been a long time since I started this blog and although I don’t update religiously, I still managed to get some stuff in. I also realized that I grew up some through the years (thankfully) and I am also happier when I am here in the US.

I wonder if it’s because I am away from my family, namely my Dad who drives me insane. I am liking it here so far, but I am sure that there will be the downs with the ups. It’s all about Ying and Yang, the eternal balance. Reminds me of something I heard in Avatar. I enjoy Avatar. I think I need to get the DVDs for it. It’s starting to repeat on Nickelodeon, like Groundhog Day, it just keep repeating….

Watching Avatar is nice and fun but there are also bits of wisdom that trickle through the entertainment.

” Katara: Why didn’t you tell us you were the Avatar?
Aang: Because… I never wanted to be “

How true! We just have to accept who we are.

PS: Note to self. Avatar movie on Nick at 8pm 30th Nov 2007

Noise cancellation

November 28th, 2007

Current Mood:Contemplative emoticon Contemplative & Confused emoticon Confused

So here I am, sitting in Tampa International Airport, waiting for my flight back to Raleigh. There’s people everywhere and children crying and screaming.

I have a cheap (but effective) noise canceling ear buds. Man, this thing is a life saver. So here I am, sitting outside my boarding gate, listening to my MP3 player and typing this blog. One word of advise though is to remember to sit very near the gate. You can’t hear the announcements at all… at least i can’t.

Suddenly things just becomes clearer without all the other distracting noise to well, distract me. Because of this, I am beginning to miss home (Raleigh) and the other things that are there. I miss the cold weather, my friends (the good, the bad, the hated and the loved).

I need to sit down and assess my current situation, where I can be, where I want to be and how to get there. It’s the yearly look at my past year and hopefully it’s going in the correct direction. Whatever makes you happy right? If only life was so simple, simple dichotomous question and answers that lead you to the ultimate answer, but it usually never is…..

“Humankind cannot gain anything without first giving something in return. To obtain, something of equal value must be lost. That is alchemy’s first law of Equivalent Exchange.” - Eric Alphonse, Full Metal Alchemist

John Mayer, Avril Lavigne, Snow Patrol and Michael Bublé

November 27th, 2007

These are the artiste that I am listening to. There are songs that mean a lot to me at this moment in my life.

We all go through phases in our lives when we have fun, we are sad, we are in love, we are homesick. This is one of those phases. I am being deliberately cryptic so if I am not coming out and say it, I probably won’t in any case. Keep guessing :)

I suddenly miss my dog.

Work is going to keep me busy and I hope that’s going to let me settle down some and be grounded to reality.

Christmas rant and Fate

November 26th, 2007

I like Christmas, and this year, there’s a potential for me to experience my first White Christmas.

But… (There’s always a but isn’t there?) I can’t stand the Christmas songs playing over the radio, in the shopping centers, basically EVERYWHERE! It’s getting on my nerves. I need to listen to some other songs. No, I am not a Mr Scrooge and going around saying humbug, but come on! It started playing everywhere like a 2 months before Christmas and it’s starting to get old.

It’s 4 more weeks to Christmas and something is missing now. I think I know what, but I can’t be sure. Sometime things just happen when you least expect it. Like me coming to the US. I didn’t exactly engineer my move here, but it just did kind of happen. I didn’t engineer my promotion, but it just happened that I had the experience from Singapore. I guess this is what they call Fate.

Fate is not always as kind as you think. Fate can be cruel too. It’s a double edged sword that cuts both ways and then some.

I am coming to a point in my life that I have to make a life changing decision. It’s not going to be easy to debate it internally within me, but I am sure that I will be able to come to a conclusion.

Being away from home and the pressures of my Dad and all the expectations is like a breath of fresh air. It feels good to be able to start life anew so to speak. It’s almost like cleaning out a messy room. You’re just happier once you see a clean room… then you start messing it up again. :)

My rant is over, so is this Thanksgiving weekend. Time for work tomorrow and I am flying to Florida for work.

Dreams, Love and Happiness

November 24th, 2007

All of the above are linked in some way. When you find any of those, I guess you really have to chase after it.

It’s not about being unrealistic or stubborn, but it’s about keeping up the flame of life. If you give up on your dreams, then, everyday becomes tougher to live, the purpose is gone.

If you meet someone that you love, that special someone that makes you want to be frozen in that one particular moment in time forever, you have to fight for it (and I don’t mean creepy stalker type).

If you know that something you have to do to make yourself happy, then you have to do it. Life’s too short to live in sadness and regret.

Chase your dreams, fight for love and happiness will follow.

Tomorrow

November 21st, 2007

Tomorrow always seems so far away when you are awaiting something.

I want it to come, but also don’t want it to come. There’s that duality theme again. Intriguing…

Diazepem

NB: Diazepem ==> 7-chloro-1, 3-dihydro-1-methyl-5-phenyl-2H-1, 4-benzodiazepin-2-one

Hope and epiphany

November 20th, 2007

Current Mood:Confused emoticon Confused

Certain events in the last week made me realize some things and allowed me to come to terms (somewhat) with others.

From the novel, Shawshank’s Redemption, “hope is a dangerous thing”, it can make a man go mad. And yes, hope IS a dangerous thing. But at the same time, hope is also a wonderful thing. Ah, the dualities of life and all the pain and joy it brings….